Happy Birthday Namjoon!
HBD Namjoon, writing about our leader during a Pisces full moon is definitely quite on brand. This dreamy, futuristic energy definitely fits the vibe for what Namjoon represents. I’ve been thinking a lot about how Joon is very much an anti-idol, I feel like the title “idol” cannot contain all that he brings to this world (much like air), that can be said for many others but I feel like he pursues art so tenaciously that its so integral to him as a person. We are so blessed to constantly witness the intensity, the language fluidity, the curiosity and the overwhelming expansive knowledge of art that is available to us through him. But at the same time in honoring him, I feel like we have to recognize the not so easy to love parts of ourselves that he too openly shares with us.
In writing this, I thought about all the good things I could say about Namjoon but that’s not the tribute I want to write. Because what’s healed me the most is seeing him confront his own vulnerabilities. We felt it at the Festa dinner, and I know some of us cried with him. He could not find a safe space in capitalism and I think he’s coming to terms with that. He feels so deeply and because of it sometimes language cannot fully hold all the emotions that he’s feeling. He is able to delve so much deeper because his emotional intelligence is so strong but that doesn’t correspond with a bi-monthly album deadline. I hope that he is given the space and time to recognize that that is okay. I hope he is able to break free in some ways and work on his own terms. I also hope that he trusts us enough to share more of what’s going on in his heart because I know we all want the best for him. But in his self-exploratory period, I hope that this also gives us the license to build that capacity for love within ourselves (as he so brilliantly reminds us in every live) in whatever shape or form as long as joy is attainable.
One thing I am so proud of him for is fully embracing his melanin, it’s been so beautiful to see him accept this part of himself. Bestie put the snow filter down and is glowing! Confronting one’s own body image is so layered because you are undoing years of trauma to find yourself and work on your inner child. He has grown so much y’all, I hope that he knows how proud we are of him and I hope that the love he so freely extends to us is returned to him and multiplied.
I hope that you have a lovely 28th birthday, Joonie, thank you for existing and being our calm in this storm. As Jungkook so proudly mentioned before (I'm paraphrasing), yes he is the leader of the group we have come to love but he truly has become such a leader in many of our lives as well. I hope that he realizes how special and how much his presence is a gift to all of us.
You have such a strong intuition and I hope it leads you to the answers you are looking for. I hope that the power of love and life continue to intertwine for you. We love you Joonie!!
Love,
@joonsmelanindrop
